A single intensity.

Tanya. Nineteen. UC student. Psychology major with no clue what to do with my life. An open-heart and curious mind. Ask me anything you wish.
Greeeek food at Kebab House.  (Taken with instagram)

Greeeek food at Kebab House. (Taken with instagram)

Pentland looks really pretty today.  (Taken with instagram)

Pentland looks really pretty today. (Taken with instagram)

Get to look at this face when I’m studying. Yes, I’m making up for all the Instagraming I haven’t been doing lately. (Taken with instagram)

Get to look at this face when I’m studying. Yes, I’m making up for all the Instagraming I haven’t been doing lately. (Taken with instagram)

My best friend has a Mont Blanc. I’m so jealous.  (Taken with instagram)

My best friend has a Mont Blanc. I’m so jealous. (Taken with instagram)

Finally received my Gold Card. This may be the proudest I’ve ever been of myself.  (Taken with instagram)

Finally received my Gold Card. This may be the proudest I’ve ever been of myself. (Taken with instagram)

Pretty day to lay out in the grass with Miguel. (Taken with instagram)

Pretty day to lay out in the grass with Miguel. (Taken with instagram)

People get really irritated by mental illness. ‘Just fucking get it together! Suck it up, man!’ I had a breakdown, and a spiritual friend came to visit me in the psych ward. And they said, ‘You need to get out of here. Because this is the story you’re telling yourself. You know, Patch Adams has this great work-group camp where you can learn how to really celebrate life.’ It’s something people are so powerless over, and so often they want to make it your fault. It’s nobody fault. I started thinking of suicide when I was 10 years old—I can’t believe that that’s somebody’s fault. Like, ‘Oh, you’re just an attention getter.’ Mental illness isn’t seen as an illness, it’s seen as a choice…. I have a joke about how people don’t talk about mental illness the way they do other regular illnesses. ‘Well, apparently Jeff has cancer. Uh, I have cancer. We all have cancer. You go to chemotherapy you get it taken care of, am I right? You get back to work.’ Or: ‘I was dating this chick, and three months in, she tells me that she wears glasses, and she’s been wearing contact lenses all this time. She needs help seeing. I was like, listen, I’m not into all that Western medicine shit. If you want to see, then work at it. Figure out how not to be so myopic. You know?’

Birthday brunch for momma’s birthday weekenddd. (Taken with instagram)

Birthday brunch for momma’s birthday weekenddd. (Taken with instagram)

Lemon Ricotta Frosted Cupcakes, Lilies, & Card ready for mama’s birthday. (Taken with instagram)

Lemon Ricotta Frosted Cupcakes, Lilies, & Card ready for mama’s birthday. (Taken with instagram)

Effing delicious Blue Crab Cakes from Yard House this evening for Fimi’s Bday. (Taken with instagram)

Effing delicious Blue Crab Cakes from Yard House this evening for Fimi’s Bday. (Taken with instagram)

Little bit of downtown Riverside. (Taken with instagram)

Little bit of downtown Riverside. (Taken with instagram)

Speckled eggs by Kevin & I. (Taken with instagram)

Speckled eggs by Kevin & I. (Taken with instagram)